You know that feeling when you try to go through life waiting for one moment, and everything else seems like a distraction untill you finally get it, and years and years of heartbreaks that were written in smoke, (cause you know, they exist for a while, and then you realize the next minute that it didnt really exist at all) pass by and youve engraved in your mind that you won't ever probably get that moment..and then out of nowhere, there it is. just like that, like all the years of tears and rejection, and failures, and wrong moments pressumed to be right ones, didnt even happen. and then you know youre supposed to be happy, and that finally you deserve it, but then you realize, oh wait, you can't take this moment, its not yours...
thats as vague as as i can put it :)))
it's like, when a person comes into your life and you try so hard to stop yourself from believing he's trustworthy or real with you or genuinely inlove/inlike with you or that he cares..because you know deep in your heart that they really arent..theyre jerks, they will rip your heart out, theyre playing you, theyre selfish and driven by bodily satisfactions, and leave when theyre bored.......you try so hard to finally just fall because youve been waiting for it your whole life, but you cant cause you know all this bullshit about them could be tue..you could fall and they will fuck you over..and you want so hard to just let go, but you can't cause its not real. you cant, cause its not yours.
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