in this world....secrets are inevitable

How sweet is this...

kindda sad for him, but sweet none the less :D



source:http://www.postsecret.blogspot.com

Moonwalk to the heavens... (A Tribute)

I was all "meeeeh...riiiiiigght" sarcastic self, when i got a text message from an unknown number that Michael Jackson was DEAD..

Went on with my usual morning drinking coffee and pandesal (parang construction worker lang.. :P) as i shifted MORNING CHANNELS with my still half awaken eyes..as i passed by CNN, it had videos playing of a young Michael Jackson singing CHARMINGLY with his brothers with bold white letters above it that said "Michael Jackson dead at 50"..it was only then that i BELIEVED..me and my mom spent our breakfast changing channels to and from CNN and FOX news..it was just fascinating to watch all those past videos of him,not to mention how AWSOME the 70's was (haha, big fan, big fan)..i kind of had an idea of how he came to be such a LEGEND..



it was funny, too, how my mom would make side comments telling me of how she had records of his albums and how she preferred the Osmond's over the JACKSON FIVE, then lead to all these stories of when she used to dance "the drop" or something..wahha..she likes to get lost walking down MEMORY LANE..it made me SMILE none the less..

although i did not grow up listening to Michael Jackson's music..he is still seen in the music of many artists today..and i think its pretty AMAZING how much of an artistic soul he is..by the littlest of details he STANDS OUT..i can not deny though how WEIRD he is, but i also like to think that THAT is part of his genius..i guess thats what makes him so god damn LEGEN-wait for it-i hope youre not lactose intolerant coz the next word is- DARY! (WHAHAH..alittle howimetyourmother post laughs there :P) i wanna epitomize his uniqueness and innate artistic genius amidst the FLAMBOYANCE and capture his unnerving PASSION for what he does..all id prolly need are these MJ like attributes to be successful in my life..hahah..i should prolly start learning the MOONWALK properly (NAAAT) :P

RIP Michael Jackson.
You will forever stay alive long as your music is still heard and played. :D

yeeee!....its a HappY Dad's Day :D

Coffee woke me up at 8, Coffee lulled me down at 9

Through time ive come to realize...
(though only today ive come to ponder upon...)

-> That almost ALL of the most tiring days are the most fulfilled ones.

** Happy day :)

-> That we, all human beings, are GENIUSES, no matter who we choose to be; physicist, stamp collector, photographer, shoe maker, gymnast, hobo.

the catch, though, is to find who you were really MEANT to be...
after that, its all......FAIRY DUST! :D

** "what defines us....surely isn't exactly what we do, but how we do it"
-Jude, Across the Universe

-> That ive come to grow a KEEN sense of observance that i can tell which ones judge others more than the other...either that, or im the judgmental, self-righteous, NARCISIST who loves the idea that they graze higher grounds above us all.

...and....

-> That...

** Charlie Bartlett: Well, see, that's my whole point. I mean you could've been born a single cell organism on the planet Zortex. In fact, given the odds, it's probably more likely, but you weren't. You we're born a human being. And not just any human being in the history of human beings, but a human being that gets to be alive today. That gets to listen to all kinds of music, that gets to eat food from every culture, that gets to download porn off the internet. So really, you have everything to live for.
[pause]
Charlie Bartlett: Do you feel better?
Kip Crombwell: Not really.

-Charlie Bartlett

....NO MATTER what other people say, no matter how right they are, how convincing they sound, or how deep down inside we know we should really LISTEN to them, its still OUR desicion wether or not we succumb to believing it.

-:O

the little things that make me happy....

1. Newly bought things....

2. A happy "chill out" song...

............AAAANNDDD.........

3.A brand NEW guitar!!!!!!!

coz my little siblings "ingeniously" thought it was perfectly fine for them to jump on the bed one day, my litol brother fell on my quietly observing guitar and was broken into half :| when i got back home, they showed me a taped up teary-eyed guitar LOL...anyway, i got a new one...a black one, i used to have a natural colored one..and this one has an amp thing-emma-jig..haha...so there..im sooo giddy..lol...okaaaay

i think im gonna go learn a new song now..hahah

oh and i think a little bit of the whole "aj rafael craze" thing had a little bit of weigh on deciding to finally replace my old guitar...

-:O

a girl can dream II ...

Although i am not exactly the sneakers wearing kind of gal..these shoes make me wanna throw away all my wedges..(waha nat!)...these ARE pretty dope though, they were custom made by this really cool chick i found on flicker who's an Industrial Designer, Illustrator and Tattoo Artist (IKR!) she's really hot too, i might go lesbo for her one day (waha jk :O)...Anyway, she made them for Nike Brazil..
I WANT THEM!!! :|


photos, again, are from:
(source:http://www.flickr.com/photos/chinad0ll/)

you make me melt with your lip ring and vneck shirts II .....

This one just absolutey made my heart seem like butter on a hot pan...wahhaha...i love how he was at shock that the crowd was singing along to his song, these kinds of moments are just priceless to watch. <3 <3 <3

"Come with me if you want to live"

So because of that whole "screw that..IM NOT SLEEPING!" ludacry i was blogging a few nights ago, i was absolutely in a daze the whole morning after, good thing we headed straight to starbucks for some power coffee..met with the friends to drop for a while at the Metro Station mini concert then watch Terminator salvation which i slept through..i couldnt help it.i tried so hard to stay awake but my eyes kept falling down..id wake up in the middle of a scene and be all like "who the hell is that girl?" "what the fuck happened?" "its done?"(when it was in the middle of a fight scene)...we watched it again the next day though, so its all good.i understood the movie; Anton Yelchin and Sam Worthington are heart meltiiiiingg *googly eyes*..wasnt as charmed by Christian Bale as Dominique ("my friend")though, visit her blog at livejournal --> http://crashingclouds.livejournal.com..hehe :P
anyway..its almost always all about the hotties..the plot was alittle confusing for me at first since i didnt really get to watch the first terminator, Dominique filled me in though..its complicated and i think that was a part of the movie's charm (aside from the obviously hot cast)..

anyway, after the whole passing out at the movie theater incident..i was still game to head up to Bea's house (another friend) to drink and chill..by this time i was in a trance state where i could literally feel my head throbbing cause i just wanted to pass out and sleep then wake up after 2 days...(again, im clearly exaggerating)......day after that, we went shopping...look what i bought -->
ITS A HAMBURGER PHONEEE>>WOOT!..and i absolutely love it <3

a girl can dream...

Its 4 in the morning, coz i have to wake up at 5 or 6 today, and no its not school, i just decided not to sleep....right after i got hungry at around 1am so i toasted me some bagels and made coffee, now i cant sleep...and we have to leave the house at like 7 or something..so screw that,im not sleeping! waha :P....

anyway, ive been thinking about getting a tattoo (something i know will NEVER EVER happen anytime soon) but i dunno, my first piercing (aside from the normal; one pierce per ear)i had, i think was when i was a sophomore in HS, i dont even remember, i even had our family pediatrician do it, since my mom was the prime mastermind to the act (in a way) and she wanted to do it the "safe way", she talked about how she once had extra ear piercings but it eventually just closed up, i thought how cool my mom mustve been back in the day that she had them done,then i thought, everyone else who grew up in the 80's were just wack..anyway, so i got 2 more in HS, another 2 more on my early years of college, which was the most spontaeous thing ive ever done(although ive already been thinking about getting pierced in the cartilidge during those times)me and my friend was on the mall then out of nowhere we were all "lets get piercings" waha..so there..then a belly pierce last year (which by the way did not fully heal for about a few weeks or so, i could barely lay on my tummy which i was used to doing so i could sleep)...although getting a tattoo is in a whole new other level, here are still some of the options i might take into consideration:O...

(source for pics:"http://www.flickr.com/photos/chinad0ll/")

waha on the last one, but i think its cute and clever (although id make it a tid bit smaller if id had it done)

when i get to the point where in im in the brink of being too arthritic to get a tattoo, id prolly just get a really small one on my wrist or ankle or something, id prolly get a smiley face, just so atleast id have even a little bit of happiness engraved in me untill the moment i die......................OOOOOR i get a really outrageously awsome one , like this.....

(source for pics:"http://www.flickr.com/photos/chinad0ll/")

- :O

IF I HAD A.......

..Id prolly be a different kind of..



Ive been obsessing about getting a holga for several months now, with that, also came the uncontrollable need to search about it everytime im online.Now i know the different kinds of lomo cams, its features, and how to load and unload its film........even if i dont own one yet :P

i always thought id be saving my birthday gift to buy one but instead, like a true shopoholic, i spent all my money on clothes and accessories (i dont regret buying those things though :O)But now id either have to hope all my christmas gifts were in cash or wait till my next birthday.....or i can save my allowance, but i dont think that ever works for me. Ive tried a million times to save my allowance for something i really wanted, but i fail and spend my savings on something as stupid as food (wahaha, im one to say)

ANYWAY,

the point is i want a holga cam.......NOW!!!!!!....hahha:P

you know you cant get enough of something, when you fall asleep listening to its beat

Unstoppable/lean on me (original)- Ryan Bandong


I meeeeelt...melt with me!...haha
because of this "AJ Rafael craze" phase ive been having, it has opened me to other artists like this guy. I cant believe hes pinoy too..anyway,because of this id probably be putting up more vids like these, also since i recently downloaded a youtube extractor..wahhah...this is not only a result to a series of boring days (although having absolutely nothing to do at home plays a huge part in this) but also because i think these guys are extremely talented..and smexy...

i think ive been having my face stuck to my laptop these past few days..i sleep with my head infront of my laptop and spend the whole day infront of it too..i turn into this "summer bum" during vaca, in defense though ive had time to do alittle working out for i think 13 days now..haha (which i think was put into use since all the events ive been going to are pool parties and beach trips)..this will end soon enough though once school starts for me......looking forward to that :|

you make me melt with your lip ring and vneck shirts....

I get those phases where i obsess over a certain thing..
like everyone else i suppose..
ive had my chris brown phase, andy samberg phase, neil patrick harris phase ( ok, i know hes gay but whatev, hes hot) and i can see theyre all guy celebs too but if i told you every phase i ever had on every single thing, one blog entry wouldnt cut it, and i dont think id remember all of it either..

anyway, recently all ive been doing is watching AJ Rafael's vids on youtube, as well as all his friends he's been collaborating with. IM OBSESSED..though i know itll subside..hes so freakn talented i think his songs will forever stick to me..its about normal stuff that inspire and you can relate to..the first hit song he made was about a girl he met online, which i thought was pretty funny (:O heh)

anyway, hes amazing....when he gets real famous, hell prolly go to the Phil and id meet him and id be happy forever..or i could prolly go to cali instead..either ways..i could prolly die right there and then when that happens..hahha (im obviously over reacting) :P

http://www.youtube.com/ilajil <-- click to find where i dropped my heart :D

if the world was at its end....

And i had to take with me one kind of snack..it would be this one..i could probably live off of it for the rest of my life..

sadly, i think only 4% of the entire Philippines purchase this product that it may in the end be damned to become extinct just like my previous favorite facial cleanser "clearasil" which eventually got faced out..

i think its just me..i just cant let go of one thing once I've gotten accustomed to it. This one's addicting though, so id probably die if they stopped selling these.

im off to cotton candyland...

..Ill be back i hope..

i think its just proper to start this off with a new beginning. They say letting go is hard to do, and frankly, its easy when you have no choice. The hardest part is bearing all the things in the aftermath, accepting the fact that its gone, is the worst.

I was searching for quotes online (i was looking for something that i could keep in my "quotes file" wahahh) and came across this one from the movie "My sassy girl" (i havent seen this movie yet though, i prolly will one time);

"Some of us are meant to suffer, you know? Some of us are lead to believe that we have this certain destiny and then it just gets snatched away. But we have to stay alive. ‘Cause we have to see how our story ends." – Jordan Roark, My Sassy Girl

i love it! i think its frank yet comforting..now whenever bad times come my way and i get this feeling like all i can do is give up, i'd glance back at this quote and stay to find out how MY story ends.